aiyoh.....

recently my work has not been smooth sailing.... but luckily I got alot of people to support me....... although sometimes I still feel very helpless and exhausted but I still managed to struggle through... Although there are still much more big waves to come, so I guess I have to go learn "surfing"..... Recently I unknowingly invited some gossips... I was told by some "tabloid" at my work place that one of my chef is very good to me and everyone is suspecting that he has some special feelings for me!!! OMY!!! I am already so buzi they still use this kind of news to "entertain" me!!! I definitely do not feel that this guy is giving me any special treatment although we also laugh together and joke at the slightest (when he is around, the whole place seems so lively)... sigh... I have alot of friends who can make me laugh!!!! so Dun care LAH!!!!! hahahahahaha!!!!!

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WAO i haven been blogging for a super super long time!!! now is already the 3rd month of 2010... so much tings happened during the last few months! happy and sad but mostly sad.... Seriously speaking I am lost!! Totally lost my direction!! I dun neo what I want dun know how to get out of the currently situation I know nothing!! I have been thru betrayal, lost and found and encouraging moments discouraging moments.. I dun neo wat to do!! I feel very tired and sick.... Recently my stress level went up so high that I am now having hair loss, insomnia, hallucinations, heart pain, body numb and alot more!!! I cant take it le!!! sometimes I feel like ending everything without considering anything but I dun have the courage!! The only way I find a little comfort is meeting up with friends but why that little happiness is always incomplete with alot of disturbance??? What should I do?? I dun know how long more I can hold on to...................

a summary of recent events....

On 13June had a great time at SENTOSA celebrating demei bday... We had a superb time lots of jokes, laughs, and of coz photos!!! hahahaha Than after the sentosa we went to east coast for part II with lionel and jeff and demei. Hahaha we not only knew each other better we also neo the most intimate side of four of us thru a small game hahahaha what are the questions shall be left a secret.... shshshsh.......

Than last saturday night, I went for wei wei and terence's wedding. Congrats to them but I really made up my mind of not holding a ceremony if I were to get married... ... than I met up with demei, jeff and lionel after that. haha the first thing jeff said was "i never seen you wear so formal before" ..... wao i also dun like wat i am wearing.. so restrict.... sigh.... somtimes really wonder if i am born the wrong gender. Than we went to movies and Jalan kayu for supper, in the end I reach home at 4am.... sigh....

my conclusion is had great time with the gang any really hope to have more gatherings like that.... :P