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WAO i haven been blogging for a super super long time!!! now is already the 3rd month of 2010... so much tings happened during the last few months! happy and sad but mostly sad.... Seriously speaking I am lost!! Totally lost my direction!! I dun neo what I want dun know how to get out of the currently situation I know nothing!! I have been thru betrayal, lost and found and encouraging moments discouraging moments.. I dun neo wat to do!! I feel very tired and sick.... Recently my stress level went up so high that I am now having hair loss, insomnia, hallucinations, heart pain, body numb and alot more!!! I cant take it le!!! sometimes I feel like ending everything without considering anything but I dun have the courage!! The only way I find a little comfort is meeting up with friends but why that little happiness is always incomplete with alot of disturbance??? What should I do?? I dun know how long more I can hold on to...................