just some trash

i went to my long-lost friendster site just now... i suddenly feel so mixed up... i dun neo how to describe the feeling its just.... I have LOTS of friends but after going to the friends page at friendster, i realised the real number of friends that i have... its really pathetic... even friends that i really cherished but due to certain unknow reasons, all of us really become so far and i feel that i have basically disappper from their lives... just few years ago i still have lots of friends to talk cok to , go makan with, go chalet or bbq with but now i want to arrange for a chalet but will there be people attanding????? i realised friends around have changed for good and some for bad but i realised i am the only one that has remained the same i dun neo if this is good but i feel that i have lost them for good and i really feel like crying... this has really destroy my day i dun neo wat to do!!! i have 3 choices ; 1)take it as nothing has happen and get buzier leave them totally out, 2) contact them again and try to remedy the situation; 3) just might as well end this whole idiotic live and let all of them miss me and remember me forever.... the 3rd choice seems like a good choice................